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Thursday, May 13, 2010

My Diary

If you know me you know that fame and success is all I want, to help people and to be able to take care of those that can not and take care of those that have cared for me and to my friends that were down from the start.
I mean Its so close Im itching I feel like a crack head..I can taste the fame I never felt liek a normal life was for me..then again I was never a normal kid/person. I mean there is nothing wrong with a 9 to 5 having 2.5 kids and a dog and a house with a picket fence..thats the way of the US..
I am scared and excited. what if Im not accepted what if I fail... what if ...what if...you know what I guess I have to stop being a punk and just go for it..I cant doubt myself ...well thats what people keep saying at least......
I dont know..Im loosing that glow a bit..the one I had when I first started the novel its getting har..and yeah its only writing ......but its not easy..I want my readers to pull images from my nove and poems and I want my songs to touch peoples souls and my acting to "become" what ever character I play..I dont know..sometimes I feel like Im crazy or I want to give up but if I do ill be stuck with shoulda woulda couldas for the rest of my life..and I aint getting no younger..lol so Im going for it wish me luck and when you see me on the big screen or on E! or MTV..BET..pray for me cause Ill be nervous as hell!


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